Sometimes you're the windshield;
sometimes you're the bug.
After a long, difficult summer of often
feeling like the bug - I'm ready to be the windshield. For many days now I've
started the day determined to change things, to be the windshield again and
start making things different. Every night I feel like I crawl into bed
defeated. I suppose it's good that every day I try again, because I know that
change isn't easy and it takes time. But the disappointment that comes when I
head into a situation determined to be different and then find that I'm just
not strong enough yet is almost too great to bear.
I gave a relief society lesson about a
year ago that I felt strongly impressed to give. I discussed with the sisters
the times that we feel ourselves being beaten down by the winds of life, the
adversary, consequences of sin, etc. I challenged every sister to go home and
write down her testimony, with the help of the Spirit. Then I challenged them
to hold onto that testimony for dear life, to treasure it, and to go back and
cling to it in times of difficulty. We ended watching the Mormon Message by
Elder Holland, in which he says the following:
"Don’t give up. Don’t you quit.
You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead—a lot of
it. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to
come. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until
heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come."
